~The small garden of my mind~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah,

You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head.The first key to writing is to write,no to think.. ( Sean Connery )

My head is very busy with some stuffs that really need to be flowed. They keep pushing me to put it down and the hardest thing for me is , not taking action directly. I often postpone to write something because of some insignificant excuses like my English grammar and vocabularies are poor, not focus and facing difficulties to point the theme and etc.. 

To be honest, I am not confident enough, when reading another blog which is much better than mine, they are more communicative,informative and off course their template more attractive,but I can't keep my stuffs in my mind anymore, it seem going to  blow up!. 

Well, here I am just amateur new blogger who just want to share what I have inside of my head and some experiences with others especially to my child and even my grandchildren ,later InsaAllah. I just can write in very simple English words because English is not my native speaker and I really hope the reader would not get  mislead nor get wrong what I have written due to my English limitation . 

Today, I have tried to turn off my cellphone and deactivated my Facebook account, just want to focus on filling my small garden of mine, yes.. off course I just need my 'Me Time' for a while. Sometimes, I am very tired seeing my friend's status, the recently news or some narcism pictures from my friends, my wall full of junk greeting and advertisement. "What a crowded world I think , I need break!. Well, it's time for me to escape from what I called a half fake stuffs , sorry to say this ,it's free for me,saying on my own small garden LoL... "  yeah... sometimes i must pretending to like a picture, status or comment of people which is I give it with a half heart, hmmm that's cyber world, anyone has own right pretending to be  someone else. And I am sick of it ,because I have some experiences to meet such people but some of them are also as real as i've met in cyber world.

I love simplicity , because  live is simple, only people insist to make it's complicated and sometime I do it that way. What the hell with a type of luxurious car , cellphone or technology , clothes , mansion ,good make up brand ,bla...bla... or related to something glamour !,it's not exactly 'me' . Don't asking about that kind of stuffs unless you'll disppointed getting my answer , I just don't know at all, means because I am not interseted in dealiyong with kind of things. I just very happy to be me as a simple woman.I love something traditional, natural and honest; It can  create good harmony towards my body and pscholigical health as well. I don't care with what other people say about me, because I don't want to live like what people want to see me, I just want to be myself. My life is so wonderful maybe some people envy with my life, they can't be free like, to do what i want to do.. Poor they are.. 

If you ask me about Paris Hilton, my heart will scream , "Big Nooo.. what a fake woman , just peace Paris ,this is about my honesty in my small garden of mind , so you can't stop my mind. And my heart will keep saying , Paris Hilton GO AWAY ! I prefer to let mother Theresa come to my heart. Well, anything what she did is inspiring and my heart will say; Mother Theresa WELCOME !. I love  one of her quotes ;
  

We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls. ( Mother Teresa )

I think that's all from me, sorry for this incovinient. It's little bit messy blog, but at least my mind get more rilax because some stuffs already thrown away into this blog. And I believe with the words , 'practice just make you perfect' or 'learning by doing'. So I need to  practice more , to make my small garden of mind more charming ,it means can be more enjoyable to be read.. 

The small garden of my mind