R.E.A.D

Talking about  the darkness  just striving me to the bad mood. It seems my brain will transfer me a sign of something negative into my mind. The dark will create black color , sorrow and miserable. I wondering when or why some people in this world just agree that the darkness or black engage  to something negative ? Who is the creator that the black color or the darkness for bad things? I am very curious to know it. I don't know why I just hate with the darkness and black color except for my clothes. 

Yesterday , we were living in the darkness due to the electricity was out. All the house in my block were turn to be dark , to be black. No body  like it including me and it got worst after seeing the water was falling through my leak roof because of the storm rain . I and my mother could not help fixing the problem just complaining and grumbling instead .'The suffering day' or 'The horrible day'  and so many negatives feelings had crammed into my head.

I was sitting on the couch in  my living room where my late father used to sit . No light and only the darkness around me and its atmosphere pushed my brain gave a sign the negative feelings , 'the loneliness ', The feeling of missing my father had came out again, The need of his presence was really strong that I want to be until my heart sored..

Read! In the Name of your Lord, Who has created (all that exists)
(Al-Alaq;1)

An hour.....two hour...three hour... to Maghrib praying we  waited  the electricity on. We must have used the traditional oil-lamp to lighting up the room due to we don't have the- handy- light. Instead of grumbling and feeling uncomfortable, I tried to open qur'an and read it in front of the traditional oil-lamp. I was reading one surrah and something has changed slowly, the positive energy was creeping on my mind..

I remembered what Allah said in Surrah Al-Alaq especially for chapter 1, which order us as human being,we must read, so we get to know more about Allah , the creator of us. 

From reading we will understand more what actually Allah wants to teach about We has been ordered to reading, means here not only reading book, science book , school's book literally, but also we should read the book of life which has prepared by Allah for us through qur'an

Dear myself, the darkness won't be only the darkness if  we have willingness to read what is beyond of it.

From the darkness, which is around  5 hours only, just remind me that I must be thankful to Allah, because there are a lot of people outside there still living in the darkness even in every single of their live. How if I were them , like people in Palestine, many children who living in very  rural area that I had dropped by when I was in Aceh. Once again, R.E.A.D  instead of complaining.

The darkness or black is actually not same with sorrow, sadness or something that related to negative things. It's just a matter of how to manage our mindset. If we using our mind to read what Allah want is just for goodness, it will be no problem with the darkness. The darkness is only the darkness. The darkness for some other people, could be used for turning on the light of their heart to find a way getting closer to our creator, Allah. It will be better if living in the darkness without lamp than we losing our light inside of the heart.

Thank you Allah, for teaching me a wonderful lesson today. I realize that I am just very dumb slave with only your please , striving me to be better person...

I can read your good message inside of  the darkness that I 've got through yesterday , once again I must say Alhamdullillah ..

My contemplation result in the darkness house ,

Trenggalek,14 December 2012