R.E.A.D

Talking about  the darkness  just striving me to the bad mood. It seems my brain will transfer me a sign of something negative into my mind. The dark will create black color , sorrow and miserable. I wondering when or why some people in this world just agree that the darkness or black engage  to something negative ? Who is the creator that the black color or the darkness for bad things? I am very curious to know it. I don't know why I just hate with the darkness and black color except for my clothes. 

Yesterday , we were living in the darkness due to the electricity was out. All the house in my block were turn to be dark , to be black. No body  like it including me and it got worst after seeing the water was falling through my leak roof because of the storm rain . I and my mother could not help fixing the problem just complaining and grumbling instead .'The suffering day' or 'The horrible day'  and so many negatives feelings had crammed into my head.

I was sitting on the couch in  my living room where my late father used to sit . No light and only the darkness around me and its atmosphere pushed my brain gave a sign the negative feelings , 'the loneliness ', The feeling of missing my father had came out again, The need of his presence was really strong that I want to be until my heart sored..

Eggplant-smoked tuna and Tofu in Coconut Milk( Lodeh Terong, Tongkol dan Tahu )

Eggplant-smoked tuna and tofu in coconut milk

This is one of traditional menus from my grandmother. She used to cook it at the clay crock on wood stove. Sometimes, I really miss the traditional atmosphere when anything run with patience and off course so naturally. This  menu just bring my mind to the atmosphere of my childhood, over past 30 years a go. I don't know, whether I will get it this menu or not for my future. Today I am very lucky, because my mother asked me to help her making this menu again. Since I don't want to loose the recepe, I decide to put it down and record it with my camera step by step how to make it.

Here we prefer using small green eggplant because its taste is little bit bitter but getting fused in our tongue. Well, I think it depend on the taste, if you dislike it, you can use another various of eggplant ( purple eggplant or big green eggplant ). In my hometown, the eggplant is very cheap, it's about $50 sen per one kg. Let's start cooking now...

~ Our extraordinary married certificate ~

"Alhamdullillah .." , Two sheets of blue sea and white yellowish papers, recently sent by my husband, via email. It's not like any other ordinary paper, which may be easily torn or thrown away to the garbage basket as I wish like any other ordinary paper.. "Well .... it's our marriage certificate, which is officially  issued by the government of Bosnia and accepted internationally.

After couple months before , we had to struggle to get  marriage certificate from the government of Indonesia. It had has been long process , taken a lot of energy, countless patience and must stand in positive way, even though facing the various emotion which is up and down. The feeling of suspicious,mad, feeling weak,weary had has popping over my heart , I still stand with my previous decision tough, how to get those sacred papers in our hand. I don't know, why I choose this way . The question has across-ed  in my mind, sometimes ," Aren't you nut,  why you keep holding on a stranger who you knew only for four days  and then now, wait for him to get the married certificate ?"

Why I had have unmoved while some of my relatives, other friends have  doubtfulness to his capability to legalize internationally married certificate and even one of my close relatives, had advised to give it up and offered some ideas to select the available local guys  here and to think twice about my mother who will be stay alone after my father passed away, how could  you leave your mother thousands miles away from you, who will take care of her when she isnot well ? .

Trying various 'Corba' ( Soup ) from Bosna..

When I visited Bosnia and Herzegovina in 2010, I noticed some people had has prepared corba ( soup ) before going  to the main dish. It stole my attention due to less common served in my country . Some people in Indonesia only prepare main dishes for their daily meal. This kinds of soup could be eaten with rice and that's all !, more simply than in Bosnia or any other country such as in Europe or USA. We don't have appetizer, soup and/or salad  and the last dessert. Alhamdullillah, I am kind of  woman who are easily get adaptable with many kinds of different foods from any other countries, off course as long as halal  ( allowed by my religion, cause I'm muslim ) food. 

My journey to some other cities or countries  can be used for learning how to know more the local food. It may be very new, strange and different for our tongue but it would be very interested experience knowing something different from ours. This kinds of soups supposed to be my  main dish because my stomach's capacity is smaller than Bosnian people. Since they are taller and bigger than me, this soup is only for the appetizer and after it, usually followed by main dishes and dessert. Hmmm.... preparing for daily meals is more complicated than in Indonesia. But, soon and later I must learn to get used to it, as my hubby is Bosnian and now Bosnia becoming my second home.

Well, I  took some pictures during visiting to some friends who had has served some various soups as my references. 

Here they are the various soups that I ever had during my visiting to some friends in Bosnia & Herzegovina. Most of them, were prepared for my Iftar ( Breaking fast ) in Ramadhan 2010. 

1. This is the first soup that I ate in Trebinje, it's prepared by Khatidza fatihagic. She is very nice woman and very expert cooking Bosnian's food. I hope someday, I had chance seeing her again and learning how to make Bosnian food from her, InsaAllah. I forget asking Hatidza the recipe of this soup and its ingredients.

 I guess this soup mixture with meat, carrot and noodles.

Original Fried Tempeh ( Tempe Goreng biasa )

Talking about Tempeh ( in Bahasa Indonesia/ Javanese called  témpé  ) , It's very popular and cheap food in Indonesia. But don't get it wrong, it's not cheapen food due to it has very high protein, dietary fiber and vitamins. Tempeh is a traditional food which  originated  from Indonesia particularly in Java Island. It made from fermented soybean and If you are vegetarian, is highly recommended because it consider as meat analogue. Well, since I am very beginner in culinary world , I'd like to share the simplest menu for today, it's called Tempe goreng ( Fried Tempe ). 

Ingredients :

- 6 blocks  / 1 package Tempeh( if it's wrapped by plastic. Here I am using Tempeh which is wrapped by banana leaves and its size is little bit thin ) 

- 3 cloves garlic

- 1tsp coriander

-1 1/2 tsp salt

-water

-oil for frying

Oooo Dear myself...check your lists, please..!

Assallamualaikum Warahmatullah

Meeting with my religion teacher of my Senior High School recently, just remain me about one of his precious lessons that he taught to my class. He asked us to make a table for daily sin's and goodness' lists that we do. His order left us curiosity in our head  , it was like such a silly thing."Please be honest with yourself, I won't protest if you make some sins and goodness; I will not check it, because it's only Allah and you know the truth.", he said. Then, we made a simple table and must filled everyday for a week.

I felt uncomfortable whenever checking my table, well...it was about my sins....Everyday I have sins even though  only appear in my  intention. To be honest, I started wrought-up when I calculated my sins appeared more, than my goodness.

~Praying for Palestine~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah,

"The Believers, in their mutual love, mercy and compassion, are like one body: if one organ complained, the rest of the body develops a fever." [Bukhari & Muslim]

"Praise be to Allah " , for still giving us chance to meet in my personal blog. Two days a go, I was hiatus from writing because of my laziness have tried tempt me. But it just create discomfort in my heart instead. So I decide to start rewriting on this small garden of mine.
To be honest, I am very reluctant if talking about the latest issue which is only repetition like it happened before and just guess at the end will left unsatisfied, suffering, disappointing   in my friend's , Muslim's, me's mind. Yeah, it's about Palestine and Israel.The Hadit above just remain me about our brothers and sisters in Palestine. The part of our another body now are in pain, so I also extremely in pain now...

Two days before Israel and Palestine have announced their armistice and I don't know how many times that moments  happened over and over again. The world has cursed Israel's arrogance and off course all we know, they had killed a lot of innocents people especially children and women. All we know what Israel do is not only against Palestinians but more important is against humanity's right.