~Allah is my only reason! then, my heart will relief ~

Assallamualaikum Warahmatullah,

Volim te u ime Allaha 

Today ,I am extremely exhausted and bored of waiting the documents from my hubby. I supposed to realize , Long Distance Relationship is not easy thing to get through it, even between two countries, need more understanding because you're in the zone of   intercontinental  and multicultural relationship, you must spend extra money to stay in touch and off course, you must take more risks.

Sometimes, my mind filled with negative questions which come from myself such as ; "How if I couldn't survived there?, how if my husband leave me or  hit me ?or how if I couldn't visiting my hometown anymore ? " , How if....bla...bla...bla.. ??? ". Recently , those questions often cross my mind  and I know the evil  is creeping     my blood vessels ,slowly , trying to lead me going to the doubt of the holy wedlock.. 

"Wait .....! and stop it!. Is it happened to you now ? , I answer,NO !.

So,why you worry about something unreal , c'mond wake up! , instead of thinking about what you don't want why you don't think about how to make successful transcontinental muslim couple ?". 

As if there were the battle inside of my heart and my mind. I must go back, however, to the right intention why I marry him instead of listening the evil and the people who against me.. So what am I supposed to do ? Just be honest with yourself and purify your 'niat' (Intention) !

1. Is your 'niat' of getting married just want to complete your 'deen' ? YES ! it refers to the 
one hadits  At-Tirmidhi Hadith 3096 Narrated by Anas ibn Malik

Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said, "When "a man marries he has fulfilled half of the ‘deen’; so let him fear Allah regarding the remaining half.

2. Are you marry just because of he has outer beauty, rich or good position ? . NO, I just want to marry him because of his 'deen', his character toward his parents , I hope InsaAllah he also treat very well to his wife. To be honest, I don't find what I  want but the most important thing is I absolutely find , he could provide what I need , InsaAllah. I just want to follow the hadits below ;

The Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) taught us in many hadith about the various characteristics which one looks for in a spouse and their relative importance and which ones determine success insha'Allah and Allah's blessing on a marriage. Among those hadith:

"A woman is married for her deen, her wealth or her beauty. You must go for the one with deen, may your hands be in the dust! (if you fail to heed). ~ Muslim~

3. We have committed to ALLAH to jump together , to cover our weakness each other to find the road as better muslim, InsaAllah , like Allah said in ~Surrah Al-Baqarah ; 187 ~,

It has been made permissible for you the night preceding fasting to go to your wives [for sexual relations]. They are clothing for you and you are clothing for them. Allah knows that you used to deceive yourselves, so He accepted your repentance and forgave you. 

Alhamdullillah, after clarifying one by one,nothing wrong with them, all of them based on the resources ,that's Qur'an and Hadits. So nothing to be worried about... But Allah will test you with many ways , just to get stronger your bounding. 

"Bismillah .... 

Yaa Robb, please strengthen our heart, our faith just to be closer to You and bless our relationship with Sakinaa Mawaddah Warrohmah in this world and here after...Amiin.."