~A special gift for our wedding~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah 

I would like to  share a poem from my friend. This is a special gift for our wedding. It's very nice poem . Thanks in a million my dear friend.. 

~I trace the love on the sky of verity~

Honesty is the spirit of love itself ...

It is  the foundation of true love ...

Honesty is the other side of the love that we can not lose it at all, if it is so, then, that's not be called love...

Here we are going  to dive into the ocean of our intentions

Why are we getting married??? For what married???

Be honest, from your genuine heart ...

So, if we get wrong intention or no honesty,  we can fix  and  rebuild it from zero growth point of love ...

Because how many people end their domesticity  Since they started their relationship with dishonesty ...

Marrying just because of her outer beauty , soon or later would create devastation in their domesticity because another prettier girl can be easily  to tease him ...

Or people who marry for the  position and  because seeing the social status only,  if that position getting lost, If Allah test it with poverty,their domesticity would be broken ..

This is the portrait of those who are dishonest in their intentions ...

 It will end with a bitterness in their domesticity ...

It's time to trace the love ...

If the word is a piece of heart, so I want these words as the link of letters in my heart to be a prayer...

So Allah will always  put my love through your heart ...
and to let  you know, that I love you forever ...

                                                                                  Trenggalek,21 November,2012

~ The key words is....Alhamdullillah 200000X..~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah

Trenggalek,  November,20,2012

 Abu Hurayra reported that the Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, said, "Every matter of importance which is not begun with, 'Praise be to Allah' is defective." [Abu Dawud and others]

"Alhamdullillah"... I just want to say many times to Allah SWT,  for still giving me chance to use my hand putting  down some experiences of my life this morning , opening my heart to read some good lessons along with very tragic, miserable and also touched- moments which I got through,today. How many times I forget to say grateful to Allah? how easy to me, saying "Alhamdullillah" but it's only lip service in which is not from my heart ? .

~My Father's favourite song~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah

Insa Allah ~Maher Zain

I just remember my father when I listen Maher Zain's song. He used to sat on the front seat in the car while we were on the way on our trip .He was really enjoying listened this song while his fingers gently smote his thighs. Even though he couldn't understand English, we saw  his face was content. It was one of our sweet memories with my late father and we really hope it would happened again, but we can't. If only we could turn back time...

Yaa Nabi Salaam Alaika~Maher Zain

The song above is another favourite song from my late father. The last day he listened this song was in my brother's Walimatul Ursy at 17 June 2012, it was also supposed to be my wedding but my husband delayed because his parents was very ill. Sometimes, my tears dropping when I listened this song, it was really touched my heart .Now everything has changed without my father's presence. But he is not die he lives inside our heart. We will always miss him. 

Rest in Peace My father... May Allah unite us with him In Jannah, Amiin 

Trenggalek, 19 November 2012

With Love

Your daughter

~The small garden of my mind~

Assallamualaikum Warrahmatullah,

You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head.The first key to writing is to write,no to think.. ( Sean Connery )

My head is very busy with some stuffs that really need to be flowed. They keep pushing me to put it down and the hardest thing for me is , not taking action directly. I often postpone to write something because of some insignificant excuses like my English grammar and vocabularies are poor, not focus and facing difficulties to point the theme and etc.. 

~The small things but it mean a lot~

So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it,And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it.(Q.S. 99 : 7-8 )

Today I was touched ,reading a story from a famous Islamic scholar Imam Al Ghazzali(ra). "MasaAllah".... It's really related to Allah's promise in Quran , even the good deed , we've done only an atom's weight, Allah will consider it.

Allah SWT Had Decided for Imam Al-Ghazali (ra) as a great Wali and a great scholar and is a source of knowledge for the generations to come till The Last Day after letting the small fly drank the ink of his pen ,because it was very thirsty and he wait it until quenched its thirst. And another proof that Allah also will reward Jannah to those who are very kind to animal living as the follow hadits ; 

Prophet Muhammad (saw) once told a story to his companions. There was a man who went on a journey and on his way felt very thirsty. He found a well and went down into it and drank water. When he came out of the well he saw a dog that was also very thirsty and was licking the salty ground with his tongue. Thinking that the animal was thirsty like him, he again went down into the well, filled his leather socks with water and gave it to the dog. Allah was so pleased with this action of the man that He granted him Paradise.

~Allah is my only reason! then, my heart will relief ~

Assallamualaikum Warahmatullah,

Volim te u ime Allaha 

Today ,I am extremely exhausted and bored of waiting the documents from my hubby. I supposed to realize , Long Distance Relationship is not easy thing to get through it, even between two countries, need more understanding because you're in the zone of   intercontinental  and multicultural relationship, you must spend extra money to stay in touch and off course, you must take more risks.

Sometimes, my mind filled with negative questions which come from myself such as ; "How if I couldn't survived there?, how if my husband leave me or  hit me ?or how if I couldn't visiting my hometown anymore ? " , How if....bla...bla...bla.. ??? ". Recently , those questions often cross my mind  and I know the evil  is creeping     my blood vessels ,slowly , trying to lead me going to the doubt of the holy wedlock.. 

Dear my beloved Mother

I have no idea how to express my feeling to my beloved mother today, because I am very shy! Yes… today is mother’s day in Indonesia (22 December 2010). I wonder why it’s really hard for me expressing my true feeling to my parents. Believe me or not, I gave huge to my parents when they returned from Hajj in 2005. I cried hard when I was hugging them so tight. It was my first time; I missed them so much after I had not seen them for a month. How about now? Well, after that I almost never huge them and prefer hide my true feeling how much I care and love them. Luckily, I am still have chance to kiss their hand after praying together in house. Ironically, it’s not like when I do to my friends, I can huge, kiss and do romantic things easily. Deep inside of my heart, I really know that my parent’s loves are very genuine and can’t compare with other love after Allah, definitely. Ooh Lord, I am feeling very guilty, only You know my complicated feeling right now…. Even today, I can’t huge my mother just wanted to express that I am really love and care about her and can’t say apologize for still cant be her best daughter..